A Test I Guess

Well the last two weeks have been certainly a test. The week after my liquid diet, my weight in was a plus 0.8 pounds…man that was discouraging, but I kept telling myself…my body’s adjusting, my body’s adjusting..I have lost over 170 pounds…i can not give up…just keep at it!!  well then another week past n bang..another gain of 2 pounds..WTF..grrrrrrrrrr   then i thought…well i did increase my walking/steps those last few weeks…and over again I went those things in my head to keep me sane…my bodys adjusting ..i will not waver…n i didnt…but i must say, it surely is a test.
While I was walking yesterday i thought alot over how many times before when dieting and losing i have given up and gained back and then some, n i pondered…what makes me believe i won’t do it again. Somehow i know..it’s hard to explain. After getting on this road to healthiness with Curtis, seeing us both work on getting healthy and how it could be done, it is so important…then seeing how his cancer took over…even when he tried sooo hard…with every breath he took to fight…but lost…and now i carry on alone. How could I possibly give up. Life is too precious to give up and I must go on.

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